Hi, my name is Janelle, and I am addicted to true crime. This addiction started as early as I can remember, as I’ve always been fascinated by things I don’t understand. A lot of what I don’t understand involves rape, murder, and other kinds of crime.
Whenever I talk about this topic, I probably come off to others as a little sadistic, and I tend to get a lot of strange looks. This is likely because my interest and favorite conversation topic is literally about other human beings getting traumatized or killed in a heinous manner. However, once I realized that I can use this passion to fuel my career, I felt a little better about my abnormal fascination. Also, now that I’ve found the My Favorite Murder podcast family, I think that my true crime addiction is completely acceptable and will rattle on about it until the end of time to whoever will listen (for those of you also interested in the topic, if you haven’t already, listen to the podcast. Seriously. Do it.).
I’ve since come to the conclusion that my attraction to true crime isn’t in the crime itself—it’s in the motive behind the crime. What could cause a person to do something like that? What happened that resulted in this severe lack of empathy? Is there a way to rehabilitate this emotional deficit?
Getting back to true crime and psychology, I knew psychology was the field for me when I found out that I can work with these people who boggle my mind so much: the murderers, serial killers, arsonists, the list goes on. That’s why I’m currently pursuing my clinical psychology doctorate degree with a concentration in forensic psychology. My ultimate goal? To assess those who claim insanity, to see if someone is competent to take the stand, and just to all around work with the people in the world who lack the capacity to feel for another human being. I don’t know if I will ever be able to stabilize the aggressive and violent behavior that are exhibited by many killers and rapists, but I do hope that, in working closely with them, I will be able to better understand the meaning behind the behavior.
Despite my long story, my message is this: there is so much more to psychology than the stigma of sitting in a room asking someone, “How do you feel about that?” Psychology offers you the opportunity to fulfill your every expectation by taking your passion (however unique) and turning it into a full-blown career. My passion is true crime. Because of the opportunities psychology offers, I get to be a forensic psychologist. Thank you, psychology, for making my dream a reality. And thank you, MFM podcast, for making me feel like I’m not alone.